It’s been a long long time since the last time i blogged. Without realizing, I’ve been holding in a lot of thoughts, stresses and emotions. Today was the peak of my stress level. There is a three thousand word essay due by end of next week. I have failed in my 365 project. I have been having difficulty studying and barely able to keep up in classes and rotations. My interest in photography and blogging are also degenerating. Been eating a lot of snacks and practically never exercised. It’s been quite a bad month.
Feel like a robot. Everyday all I am doing is following a schedule set by the School of Medicine. All I worry about all day what time am I getting home and what to have for dinner. I somehow manage to spend hours and hours on the internet, using up precious time.
Now when all the time I should have used are gone, suddenly, I got even less time for the things I need to do and want to do. This is the my mistake. Mistake of Procrastination.
My heart is uneasy. It feels like I’ve lost something. In the past few months, though I’m alive and surviving each day, somehow it feels like I have lost a small part of me. It really nags me because I can’t figure what it is. Such an unsettling feeling.
At least, my head is clear, for now. I have things I need to do in a shorter span of time. The only thing I can do is to hope that the quality of my work will not be compromised. After this assignment, I need to begin working hard on my studies and knowledge.
It is good to see that you are still around – I have been missing your writing voice. You have a lot on your plate right now and your 365 and blogging should come at the very end after the priority list. Please take care of your health, my friend. We will be waiting when your priorities take less of your time.